well things this week have been a bit crazy. my schedule has been different so i've had to modify running to fit my hectic changes... after sunday's run i really didn't want to get back out there. i was so nervous to get back in the saddle that it took everything to get out there...
i'll be honest... i don't even feel like blogging because i feel like i'm just going thru the motions... ah ha!! the story of my life. i get to a certain point in every journey, where i just start to go thru the motions. so what to do...
there's no room for resting this week because i'm moving up in intervals and times. only a few more runs left and i'll be doing 20 min without stopping. the last 2 runs have been totally mental. i've wanted to stop... and for no other reason but to stop. then i'll get a huge burst of energy that lasts a few minutes.
so help me out people... is this the reality? i want this probably more than i did when i started but it's all sinking in. this is not easy at all... hhhhhmmmm....
ok, someone told me that you build a habit eventually. maybe it's not going thru the motions but continuing to build the habit... each run i have to push myself just a little bit harder... so i suppose in the spirit of this journey i don't know if i want this to get easier yet. i want to keep growing and not plateau...
here's to the next run... i'll keep you posted.
This heat isnt helping!!! grrr! I ran Sunday but nothing since... hoping tomorrow I can get out there again. let me know if you wanna double.
ReplyDeleteSomeone once said it's the journey not the destination. So what are you running for? Is it a goal of a certain time? Or... something more? Maybe you are running to change your whole awareness. Goals are very important, but we Live in each Moment... in each Step...
ReplyDeletemy goal has always been to accomplish something... but to what end? i know i'm running in a 5k in october... a challenge posed by a co-worker that is now backing out. but i began this all more for a sense of changing my whole awareness. i do believe that you may have put some things into perspective...
ReplyDeletelast night as i ran, i pushed my last interval for a little longer than laid out just to reach a visable goal... the end of the road. the more tired i got it got farther and farther away. i had to remind myself one foot in front of the other... just keep moving.
thanks for the insight... very impactful.