not feeling it tonite...

so i can honestly say this has been the hardest week ever... what am i doing wrong? every run feels worst than the last. my breathing is erratic and labored. my legs feel fine and i want to open my stride but it's like i have a tie around my thighs and i just can't. i've heard talk about this wall that runners hit. i'm not so sure i can call myself a runner yet and not to under estimate myself too much but someone please tell me what it feels like... then please tell me how to dig down and push thru it. tonite i wanted to quit so bad and then... I ATE A BUG!!
here i am gagging and choking on this nasty bug and trying to catch my breath and push thru the intense urge to quit. i must have looked like an idiot... i couldn't even tell Britt what was wrong, i just kept on spitting... it seems funny now but at the time, not so funny.

here's the breakdown i ran this week...
3 min run 90 sec walk/5 min run 2:30 walk
twice...
i know that doesn't sound like anything but seriously, i have struggled like nothing else.
so what did i accomplish this week because this is not supposed to be about me belly-aching and feeling defeated. this was all started in the spirit of what i know i can do not what i'm not doing...

so here goes... not once this week did i skip a run. even when i wanted to stop i kept going. it hurt like hell sometimes but i pushed thru it. i have completed an entire month of consistently running 3 days a week. someone told me when i started this that it would take 21 days to build a habit, well i made it 30...
for those of you that are following along... here's this weeks breakdown. now my trainer tells me that we are going to take it one day at a time and if one day needs to be repeated than we will but here it is...
tues: 5 min run/2:30 walk (3 times)
thurs: 8 min run/5 min walk (2 times)
weekend: 20 min run no walk

again i'd love to hear if anyone of you are running along with me. i know some of you have said that you're at least getting out there and moving. i can't tell you how happy that makes me. part of this journey has been the realization that we only have a limited amount of time to actually get out there and enjoy these opportunities. i don't want to waste it any longer...